art, life, love, poetry, rhyming, romance, sadness, Uncategorized

Divorcing

There’s a change

A new range between cage

Bars and the smart

Whip of finger snaps

I clap, I cry, I’m flying

On a blade of burnt grass

One change, enrage

But I’m myself again

Too many bars in the cage

Of your unwilling, thrilling

Unhappiness

And my rods and cones

Focus like hocus pocus

I’m clapping, I’m crying, I’ll fly

On my smirking lips

Covered by finger tips

No “shhh…”

Just knowing, I’m instrumental

My sanity is mental

Finally, my heartbeat, feels gentle

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depression, life, loneliness, poetry, sadness, thoughts, Uncategorized

A literal description of depression

I was pretending to be normal

And really wanted to be

Only because of they way they treated me

From the time I was a baby

I was myself when I was alone

I could be sad by myself

Without anyone looking at me

Asking me what’s wrong

A question I’ve never answered accurately

I gave up the things I loved

Loved more than my own life

In order to be strong, happy, normal

For a few years I “was”

But now I wonder if I was simply

Getting really good at lying

Until one day it was too much

It all came rushing back

The weakness, the illness, the self-loathing

Wanting to be someone else

And never, ever feeling free

 

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